are you there god....

[demon chloe]

....it's me....demon....


hello world...
i need to ramble tonite... hope no one cares...cuz this could be 3 sentences.. it could be 45.

Long ass day. On my way to work...I was crying and listening to Christmas carols when I looked ahead...and saw a huge buck fly through the air...and 2 smaller deer run for their lives. Cars zigzag....one veers and when I pull over.... I see that it is smashed..and the windshield is obliterated. I run over to it..with another teacher..who had been driving ahead of me.....


Those people were stunned...good thing they had seatbelts on.. their windshield was gone..and so was the front of their car.....and the deer flew across to the westbound side of traffic...


Why don't people stop? We would want someone to stop if it was our mother, brother, sister, child......


It wasn't til after I got out of the ccar..and I was standing on the side of the highway that I realized that ...the deer could still be alive and angry.... it was HUGE....


so anyway... odd day...I didn't feel good at all today...my eyes were watering..my ears hurt i sneeze every 14 seconds... and it was almost as if my students could tell...i was off ..the mark today...

they were gonzooo... to the point..i was ... a crank. They aren't used to that...and neither am I. Made for a long day.....

I tried to go Christmas shopping tonite..and my heart just wasn't in it.....


GOOd grief...what is my problem.... im turning into some stranger that I don't recognize and I dont even want to recognize.


more to come

[demon chloe]

im blah

blah is a good name for me..

you know how after you get a cold...and your skin is dry and your lips are dry and you look blah..and feel blah...


im just that....exactly ======>> blah


i worry that i wont figure it out..and i will miss christmas.....

and watch..life..just pass by....

[Cyalaytr]

wanna piece of my cake?? it is german chocolate [img]graemlins/cake.gif[/img]

[Father Dave]

amy...ya know me...i hug sometimes and i kick butt sometimes. i have never told ya fluff stuff and, for that i think ya think i'm kinda hard on people.

i tell it like it is. ya see i am a clown. i make people laugh...if i can't make 'em laugh at me...i kinda make 'em laugh at themselves but, sumtimes they don't see it like that...they think the clown is making fun of them...but he isn't-not really- see he's an old clown...he's been around...he's been up and down and still he's a clown...'cause the people want a clown...they want to laugh...and that's his job...(he thinks) (he hopes) but, amy, sometimes the clown gets, well...tired...kinda down and kinda angry that all those people want him to be happy all the time- cause he really isn't that happy...he really isn't that..that..that..clown...he's just another human being who needs to be noticed...who needs to be valued as a friend or a sibling or a...(fill in the blank).
sometimes, it takes someone else to say..."it's okay to stop being special and start being you"...sometimes it takes someone else to say "you're not on stage...feel free to be you"...but my friend amy, right now i am saying...i can't imagine what it's like to feel what you are feeling, but i will promise you from here until forever...you are not alone.

Sorry if this was a bit personal for a post...but i believe i've been around long enough to care enough to share enough and say enough.

My door is always open and, amy, you know i don't piss on yer leg and then tell you it's raining...i tell it like it is as best i can.

i give a damn..i really do- my hand is out...it's out to you.

Merry Christmas,

just dave [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img] [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img]

[*Olivia*]

amy...much to say, will do it when we next see each other on msn...

you asked if god was there? well you got father dave instead, one of his angels...

i love you chicklet

Fi

[Cyalaytr]

maybe these will put a smile on your face

[demon chloe]

DAve... thank you for your words....


....you do always tell it to me straight... a few times ive run away....sniveling too.... [img]tongue.gif[/img]


Im just blueee right now.... life is hard, like the rest of you don't know that. Im not whining over the lil stuff. I truly, genuinely feel blah right now. Im doing everything I can to fight it. Lots of sleep. Going and doing things to keep myself interacting. Even got my camera back in my hand yesterday. Has been nearly two weeks.


and CYa..what a beauty she is...and yeap..it made me smile lots [img]smile.gif[/img]

[Blazey]

ya know..i didnt get to tell you..how much i enjoyed our talk the other night..i know i rambled on about my life troubles to ya..but i didnt think you wanted to talk about yours.. [img]redface.gif[/img] ..but you know...no matter where..when..or what it is..im always here..rain or shine.. [img]smile.gif[/img]

Cya..thos pics made me smile..BIG smile..thank you..

dave..you are them best..this i've known for sometime... [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img] ..Fi.he's a keeper aint he.. [img]wink.gif[/img]

[*Olivia*]

CYA .... squeals when i look at that lil patootie face.....sooooooooooooooo cute *VBS*

hugs amy coz i see her smiling over there *S*

oh yeah chele....that he is....definitely a keeper *VBS*....pppsssttt 9 more days [img]biggrin.gif[/img]

[~*Twi*~]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Cya she is a cutie pie *S*